Lonely Day

I miss France. Definitively.

My first times in Japan were so cool ! Finally I could discover this fascinating country ! I was so happy, and I felt so lucky !

But now I feel so... I do not know... My life is as hollow. Because I do not have any marks or any ties here. No presence, no love, nobody to say “Don't worry, here your home is”.

Everything is new, everything is different... The food, the way of life, the home, the manners... I am a western girl lost in eastern country. We are all strangers for each other, even if we say “friend”, even if it is honest. I just have to follow the others, and do my best to be accepted. And you can trust me, it is quite hard. Disappointments, frustrations...

I didn't want to stay with French people because I wanted to improve my language skills, and I really wanted to know Japanese and foreign people. But finally the linguistic barrier is really handicapping. Often I would like to say a lot of things, but I do not manage to express them in English or Japanese, or people does not catch what I mean. So I just stay silent. I try very hard to understand what the others say together, but most of time I cannot. I think that the best way to get the relation with your friends deeper is the communication. So when the communication is disturbed by lake of skill, it is... Complicated.

But anyway ! Sometimes I spend really good time with some people here. Thanks to them. So I'll try to continue to give them the best of me. Even if there are days as today when I feel desperately alone.

Obama ~ Historic Day

Barack Obama... I think this name sounds as a hero's name. Don't you think so ? He looks like some black main characters from american series or movies. You see which kind of ? Smart, strong, charismatic... The perfect figure on this planet globalized by american culture.

He embodies the change. That is why he is so popular around the world. The situation is so dramatic that peoples of all the countries gave him their whole confidence. Opinion changed from « All this shit because of Americans who want to be the boss » to « Maybe Americans can do something today and save us ». He may be able to restore the place and reputation of United States in the community of nations.

Today Barack Obama became the President of the United-States of America. By the way he also became the man of the world who got the heaviest responsability : the hope of the whole world... All the heads of state told him messages of peace and cooperation for a new world. They are all as enthusiastic and hopefull as people that they represent.

People expects him to change the world... Maybe it is a general desperate hope for the utopia of a better world. Who knows ?

Only future will answer this great question.

I don't trust only in Obama... American people did the same choice than French people did last year : to choose the President of the Change. I am prood of my President even if he is criticized by some blind, narrow-minded, naive persons. He is a strong man, clever and charismatic too. I am sure they can do great things together, him, Obama, and other strong heads of government, and push other nations on the way of change.

Maybe bad things will happen instead of good things finally. But it is only that this situation can't continue anymore.